Spring Blossom, Autumn Sorrows

Saturday, September 30, 2006

AAARGGHHH!!! Somebody kill me!!!
erghh..its like super embarassing..i wish mardy was dere to save me...only she wld understand...haiz...ok...heres abit of wat hppnd..
Ok....so i went to this iftar thing at ngee ann..as usual...im alone...duh? the ppl dat i noe can be counted by A hand...seriously...let me name u...Taufik, Tini &Nadia. the rest are not catogarised as frens as...i only had less then 10 secs conversation wif dem..n dat too was Een, sakinah..n dats it...so like crap...but, i decided to come coz, i think its abt time i do some socialising..rite? so.. i arrived arnd..510 pm...but still the whole thing wasnt started yet...den when it all started, i was grp which bunch of lunatics...minah's, but lunatics..n due to my "experience", i can get along wif dem..quite oklah...i think dey were abit suprised, coz me...tudong..n stuffs...aahh, wateva...so we played the lamest game eva!!! n when presenting, all of dem suddenly become mouth tight... n act all "feminine"..wt sia...so, i end up hv to present it, in order to save our reputation..or my reputation shud i say...den..bla bla bla...terawih..blablabla...prize giving ceremony..this girl, which at dat time i donno her name, (HAHAHA), asked me, "fiza, ikot aku gi toilet" i asked her "kenaper?" den she ans"aderlah.." so i juz followed..den we came bck...den...i saw a few grps were reciving the prize, so i asked my grp members, "kiter menang tak?", bcoz, before, were we like jokingly said,"kiter confirm menang.."..yahlah..but it turns out, we didnt win...den suddenly, the m.c, announced a suprise award, Mr, n Mrs Iftar.. wt...seriously...lame wif a capital L sia.. den suddenly, i had dis trigger, wait, who's gonna be mrs iftar? den i luk arnd...ok, dere r many beauties here...so fret not..den i think again..must it be frm Np? deni turned..i saw the "Dayang" grp...ok..absolutely no worries..den dey announced the Mr Iftar, it was a guy frm Tp or NYP, not so sure...so i juz...wah..relex ah...so many cud win..but, i secretly prayed it will not be me, i mean, like, i noe no one frm the comitte...n i wasnt trying to get into anyone gud book or anything...n at that moment..i heard.."Hafizah".....a moment of silence......10 secs passed....20 secs...the guys suddenly qsnd, siaper hafizah...i was cursing...n in denial..coz, hafizah, byk hafizah aper....(truth, i was the only hafizah)...den, Taufik pointed at me n laughed. I turned, nadia luked at me n smiled, tini turned at me n smiled...so, like a rotten ****, i raised up, n walked to the front, i was trying to make the best of it, "action bagos arh..", den, the guys applauded...i was like "terima kasih, terima kasih.." den i turned, n recieved the ridiculous prize..it was a wand. i bloody, serve no perpose, wand. my faced juz got cramped...n when i turned to face the crowed, i saw all camera taking shots..i juz wanna die...i cant smiled, i tried to..but my faced juz got cramped, n i was touching the end if the wand, hoping it to be sharp. n since it wasnt, i juz walk of, even when deres still shots being taken....~~~
i wished, mardiah was dere, at least she noes how i feel. i wished, i was infront of ppl dat i can call frens...at least, i can pretend to be happy for them...
p/s: thanks nadia, for sticking wif me.....

she told the story ... 11:31 AM

Thursday, September 28, 2006

can someone tch me how to create my own blog skin? i wanna create a nicer one wif Hady's theme...heheh...btw, juz now, iftar wif abg n papa at raffles hospital...after dat, when to bazar near by..but its super lame...so me n abg were like..."balik..papa..balik.." but papa still walk arnd.. n ignore our brat-ish trantums...hahaha..den papa gv up, n we took the cab home... this whole week, i've been iftar wif my bro...i donno..i muz say, i think...we missed each others company...still remember when were we kids, its oways the two of us...oways watched each others bck...im hepi dat i've a gd realtionship wif my bro...i mean..he can be an ass once in a while...but...i gez, dats the meaning of family rite? ppl dat u dun choose...n sticking tru wif dem... i hope, i can be an inspiration for him, in choosing his path on wat to do after ORD...haiz..lets pray hard n hope for the best...
Tomorro, iftar at Ngee ann, im worried abt abg...coz dat means he gonna be home alone..iftar alone...or will he go out wif his girl? but, his girl his working...alah..dun wori lah..he's a big boy... im sure, he can juz call his frens..rite??
then sat, abg stand by, so me iftar at mosque...
Sunday!!! a really luking forward day...Fab 4 + Fiza...iftaring together...donno where yet... mera wants budget, fatimah wants near to mosque..n hazzy wants near to home..wah, headache... haiz gonna leave the place for jay to decide...
And yup...got my pay..not much..but at least, after covering my hp bill n ez-link fares, i still got arnd..80 to survive...hahaha.. dats all folks!! have blast!!
p/s: Irsyad still hvnt pay me....sigh...

she told the story ... 10:26 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

its too early in the morning too say its a beautiful day....i am juz xcited coz tomorro is my BLOODY PAY DAY!! after the whole month, survivng with only 3.65!!! tomorro, my misery shall end..(i hope)...so...i am expecting atleast...$200...if any lesser, im gonna be miserable again!! ARRGGHHH!!! coz, if lets say i only get 150, i pay my bill n dats it!!! WALAUWEH!! i work ****** hard juz to pay ******* bill issit???? and den my transportaion? and den hari raya?? wah...lets juz pray hard i get more den 200...i am oso waiting for irsyad's pay.. WHICH I STILL HAVENT GET!! gog noes when dey gonna put it in...ISSIT DAT HARD???? haiz... dis is the voice of miskin...no money..no money...~~~
so, wats up with de layout??? well...its not gonna be permanent lah..but...while im still mad abt it, it will last..hahakkss...so this brings me to another topic... The judges are not happy abt Hady mirza's victory.
WAT SIA???!!!! i mean, HADY totally deserve to win. and he has VOTES to prove it. wats up sia?? if u're not happy abt it, den dun make it a voting competition. I HATE KEN!!!! he shud be SACKED!!! *****er!!!! arrghhhh!!! im juz so frustrated...hady dun deserve dis...well..~~~ wt*..
After the annoncement, dey have this party at Giraffe restaurant & bar. n u noe wat hady said, "I cant drink..so.." LOL...i dun believe he dun drink lorh...like duh? he was a pib performer... Hady..hady...still trying to impress me...i mean everyone..HAHAHA..
And, i've decided wat S&W to select...im gonna be in the CANOE POLO!!! i dun care...if im too tired den, i juz skip lah...GHAHAHA...why canoe polo? coz..i nd to be train mysef to be strong to be an engineer..yeah!! if i dun get canoe polo, den, im going fo obstacle rope course...yeah..if not, den i juz entam, blindly pick anything lah...LOL!!
ok peeps...Looking forward to blanja all the ppl i hutang~~~Mardy, Siots...n REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IFTAR WIF U ALL!!! WHEN? WHEN? WE STILL HVNT CELEB HADY'S VICTORY!!!!

she told the story ... 11:05 AM

Monday, September 25, 2006

I hv soo many things to say...but to summerised all in one sentence is, so wrong never felt so right!! well, i went to the indoor stadium wering the wrong colour coding for hady, n i was afraid like its gonna jeprodise or anything...but yah..HADY MIRZA WON!!! whooohhoo!!! i feel so sexy!! yippeee!! HADYYY!!!! i say ha u say dy, HA-DY!!!
mama voted 4 by phn n 20 by Hp...gosh!! n i voted only one...hahah!! it is suppose to symbolise my love for him, only one...CRAP!! hahah..oklah...i really tot dat Jon was gonna win. i was like closing my ears n eyes as though im watching smthg GORE!! LOL!!! n i was like picturing how upset im gonna be...den when gurmit said it, "HADY MIRZA", i juz cudnt belive my ears!!! OMG!!OMA!!!! waaagghhhh!!!! hady!! my buah hati!! my baby!!!! omg...omg.... i am so hepi.. but he luks exhausted...pity him....i wanna marry him!!! HADY!! LET ME BE UR WIFE!!! ok~~ i've to stop dis...i mean, dat guy is even aware of my existance!!! arrhh!! who cares, I LOVE HADY MIRZA!!!!!

she told the story ... 10:22 PM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Having fever today..actually, since yesterday...my head feels as tho its doing spilts... But, regardless of anything, i am going to the indoor stadium today!! whoohoo!!! hady, hady!! i dun really feel like going, coz of the fever, n coz it ramadhan...but, this is like a super rare opportunity...so..yah!! I AM GOING!!! it is all thanks to NATTO!! coz her frens unlce works at the indoor stadium..so like can sneek in..hahah..wateva..thank you!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
Hmm..watelse...ouh..yah...Aiman...hes haunting me...i wanna tell sm1 abt it, i dun wanna blog it coz it is embarassing...but, i cant keep it to mysef, all this feeling is too much to handle...hahaha..
hes been appearing in my dreams...oh...aiman...wish i cud see him again...sigh....but i heard atikah likes him. or he likes atikah..donnolah...wateva...Btw, dis leads to a conclusion. which is, i dun really like older guys..like 5 years older...coz, deir mindset are all abt marriage... bleargh... i like younger guys...coz...dey make me feel younger...LOL!!
Ok..dats all frm me...
p/s: im in no mood to fill in the empty spaces in my blog...sori for dat..

she told the story ... 10:45 AM

Friday, September 22, 2006

How are you feeling today?
You give love a bad name-Bonjovi~~ wth? wat issit suppose to mean..?
did i get hurt today? no....i dun think so...???

Will you get far in life?
One last Breath-Weathered- creed~~ i dun even noe i have this song...
still dun get it...
after listening to the song...
blured...more den eva...

How do your friends see you?
Alhamdulillah-Too Phat, Yassin, ahli fikir~~ a reminder? sm1 alim? me? erh?

Will you get married?
my ans - No.
Faithfully -Journey~~my ans still NO.
wait..this song is abt a married couple...wtf.....
BUT, dis is a song that hady sang in spore idol....hmmm..meow meow...

What is your life’s theme song?
Back at one - Brian mcknight ~~HUH??!!!
i oways bck to square one...?

What is the story of your life?
Stay-Lisa Loaeb~~ issit juz me who has a weird song list???
i still dun get it...
after much tot---i dun move on??

What was high school like?
Outta Control (remix) -50 cent feat Mobb deep.. dis one, I TOTALLY get it..hahaha

How can you get ahead in life?
Check up on it-Beyonce ft slim thug~~ i hv to...CHECK? check WAT?
or let the boys "check" on it..? huhuhhuhuh????

What is tomorrow going to be like?
Drowing- Backstreet boys~~ means i die tomorro? or..tomorro gonna be boring? wat drowing? can u be more specific???

What is in store for the next weekend?
Belaian jiwa- innuendo~~im gonna fall inlovee??????

What song best describes you?
story of a girl - Nine days feat blink 182, matchbox 20, third eye blind
erm...ok..very specific...totally get it...

How is your life going?
my humps (crunk remix)- black eye pease
hmmm....?listening to the lyrics...meaning...alot of guys after me? GHAHAHAGAAHA!!

How does the world see you?
Januari-Glenn feat kenny G -the duet
world see me as januari? or pathetic?

Will you have a happy life?
my ans. NO.
walk away-Kelly clarkson~~ i tot so...LOL!!

What do your friends really think of you?
Let get retarded-black eye peas~~~ I..C....

What song describes the person you’re attracted to?
Nothing gonna change my love for you- George Benson & al-jarreau~~~ im attracted to a person dat wont change his love for me? faithful person? ok...im begining to get the hang of this...

What message would you like to tell the next generation?
don hv free sex.
belah saje-dangdut alias kadir & masinie...~~~ im back to square one...yet, again..LOST...

Do you have a deep dark secret?
who doesnt?
cant get enough-Dj envy-the n.y transporters.....~~~~
means...i have too many?? hehehe...

how this game work is, u put ur songs on shuffle den u ans the qsns, clicking fowrd bttn for each qsn..try it out..to see how ridiculous it is...hehehe...

she told the story ... 8:07 PM

Hi..!!!!
Why i start blogging again? was inspired by sm1..don wanna tell who...hahaha...
so wats up wif my life? i've been relief teaching...HAHAHA..funny isnt it? i wanna tell u how it was...but i tell you, it wud be at least a 20 page essay...lol...
so let me juz tell you the UNFORGETTABLE incident..
b4 dat, i was a science tch for pri 5 & 6 for 4 days on laz week. n for the past two days, i was a bahasa tch for pri 1 & 6. so, here are some unforgettable moments;

OFCOZ, my first day...hahaha...

i was super nervous...i cant even begin to describe how nervous i was. i wasnt only nervous, but i was also sooo paiseh. i donno how to act, how wat to say. the first class that i stepped into was pri 5 itqan. i think their first impression of dem was, i donno how to teach (which is the pure truth) den...wat~eva~
wat i learned frm this is the fact dat, how important it is for a tch to tell the students their name. i mean, being a tch is hard. bcoz, in each students eyes, the tch is respectable no matter wat bckgrnd the tch comes frm. tch are sm1 dat they always luk with respect.~no matter wat~ so, when the tch isnt interested in telling the students abt who dey are, the students like smwat loses interest in the tch. hahah.
oso wat i learned. if u donno, ask the students.

the day i stepped into a pri 1 class,~~~my most never will i forget~~~

i tell u, it was a pure nightmare. SERIOUSLY. they were cute n noisy at the same time. Ridwan, ryhan, taha..to name some. those r the SUPER ADORABLE, but super naughty kids. BUT, im inlove with ridwan. the other time, i asked the class "siapa boleh letakkan meja dan kerusi untuk ckgu?" all the boys were shouting n fighting on who to put. u noe wat ridwan did? he took sm1 else's table dat is nearest to the door n put it outside. ARENT HE CUTE? OMA!!! ya Allah... i was juz speechless...still cud remember the first time i said my name, he started singing.. changing "lailaha" hafizah...cheecky, i tell u!! feel like squashing him to death.
the day Mr. Fadhlur hv to take charged.
the p1 class was really going overboard. like REALLY REALLY. n i was conducting malay oral exam. i kept on asking the class to keep quiet. but, i really donno how to scold dem. i think bcoz, dere r like super innocent n dat time i was fasting so, i was like..donnolah..i juz cant scold dem as bad as he did. mr fadhlur i mean. haiz...he was juz next door, so i gez he saw me walking in n out of the class. He shouted, n the whole class juz froze. damn funny sia. hahaha~ but, i felt bad arh..coz..aiyah..nvr mindlah..wateva it is, THANK YOU MR FADHLUR.

the p6 students

haiz..dey are like the only class i actually really get along with....i tink dey like me..HAHAHA, who am i kidding...

the "look"

wat i mean is, deres dis time, i was in p5 ihsan. so i was kinda like teaching n kinda like interactive teaching where i talked n make jokes n asked dem for opinions arh...like, wat happens when we touched electricity? den the whole class will like shout for ans..n i will like wat? wat? wat will hppn? den while joking, deres dis student who said,"aper seh tch" den his fren pointed it out to me, he said" tch, tch, he said, aper seh tch.." den i asked him, wats dat boys name? he said FOM...i was like huh? den i called him, "FOM" he luked blur, i said, "RUDE TO THE TCH, STAND UP!" he luk so guilty...he was"wat? wat fom? wat did i do?" i tell u he luked as though he felt so guilty dat he has upset the tch. den he asked again "wat did i do?" i ans " very rude eh" but den, i felt guilty, for making him feel guilty. i cant really xplained his xpression, like, i have hurt the tch..so i said "forget it, sit dwn!" but after arnd 5 mins, he still like, wat FOM? why? wat? den i said? "KENAPER NI?" den he gv me dat "luk" AGAIN, den i said, dalah forget it kay, kiter member kays? i make like a hand gesture of a punch like buddy2.. so he light puched my hand..n said..kay members, i said..rite members..hahaha~~

HANAN!!!

I AM LIKE IN LOVE WITH HANAN!!!!!! he kinda remind me of bro hatta. HE IS SUPER ADORABLE!!! THE CHEECKS, I CAN BUAT SATAY!!!! OMA!!!!

hes the kind dat, he dont do any wrong infront of the tch. but at the bck, he kacau all his frens. imagine, when i was outside, he was like walking arnd, goin to his frens place, den when i stand at the door, he quiclkly walked to his table, n put his head on the table...omg...i wanna marry him!!! hahaha!!!! he sooooooooooooooo cute!!!! u tell me, how am i to scold him??? n his eyes!!!!!!!!!!! they are like puppy eyes made. no, made in puppy company!!! he sooo cute lah... i feel like kissing him....btwn him n ridwan...i donno who to choose..LOL!!

"cikgu,cikgu wangi"~~hahahah

p1 student..dey salam n hugs..im missing those huggies now!!

"cikgu lawa"~~hahaha x1000000

said by, adibah bte azhari. LOL!! she actually walked frm her table, which is at the end of the class n tell me dat. "awak pun lawa.."

"not wizely lah, wisely"

dis was said by the student dat i oways tot he nvr cared abt my lesson. n when he said dat, i wasnt offended, i was touched. coz, i noe his the type dat dun really like to layan new ppl...n he oways hv dat xpression like, i dun care...he is fatris btw, if u noe him, u wld be suprised too..hahah...

n yah....the stickers n notes dey gv me...even when i was shouting at the top of my lungs..

hahaha..xperience....

to sumerised, it was omost better den ledang..yup..omost...

CONCLUSION, i wanna be an engineer more den eva...LOL!!

ok..peace....no more teaching...atleast for now... n selamat menyambut ramadhan..

she told the story ... 6:04 PM