Monday, November 06, 2006
No mood to blog actually...but just need a listening ear...
Alot of things caught my attention lately...abt frens...abt life..abt Love...think i've busy-ied mysef wif sch for me to think abt these "minor" stuffs...stuffs dat most of us juz took for granted... how much hv i chnge since..begining of poly life, or shud i say...after Irsyad...one to say...i've said lesser "sorry" hahah...now..i copied more den i shud...n personality...i donno...i juz becoming more dun care i gez...its juz, when u r being wif guys...u dun feel like as tho u're being judge...only if im arnd the malay guys lah...dat is very rare lah...but wateva it is...im still me...
ouh..yah..i was bored this afternoon, so i went to mardy's blog..n click on her past...den, i read her post on october 2004...the sentence caught my attention arh..the sentence was.."Fiz the beauty..." i mean...at dat time, she noes dat deres no way i wud read her blog...n like, i donno... everytime, ppl say dat im pretty or wateva..i juz feel like dey're trying to be nice...coz, u dun go on telling an ugly person u're ugly rite? further more, dey r my fens...so...up till today, i kept on thinking ppl r juz ttrying to b nice...so, frm today onwards, if ppl say im (wateva), i will say.. "You're way more gorgeous ursef!!" hahaha....den wat else...ouh yah,,
actually...i wanna say dis here arh...but, i cannot say...but, everytime ppl say dis...it juz shatters my heart arh....how not to..like even if i dun wish to...it does...but, i cant run away frm it, coz they nd me...how?? i think..i can still be strong...maybe deres still abit left...when i recharged, den its been used up again..i juz nd to recharged again...i will be strong for dem...but at times, i juz wished dey dun tell me...dis brings me to another tot...am i a gud fren?? i feel lousy... if i were smone else, i wudnt want a fren like me sia...like, its totally unnessary...i gez, my frens are really special, coz dey r aBle to put up wif my nonsense, n still declare me as a fren...U PEEPS MAKE ME PROUD!!
gez..dats all...for now
"we all hv a past to forget...and because of that, we hv forgotten abt our awaitting future.."
"ALLAH, AMBILLAH AKU SEADANYA..I AM STRONG ENUF!!"
she told
the story ...
10:08 PM
